Well sorry about that last freak out post. I seriously started at least 8 separate posts that same day. All about very inconsequential things, but, couldn't finish more than one or two sentences about the topic when moments before I had loads of things to say.
While all the same things are still on my plate, I'm digging out slowly and taking one thing at a time. I've also thrown myself into serving others in small but meaningful ways. It helps me feel better. Like I can do some good in the world, while still not having to tell myself what to do.
Today's job... get my desk at school cleaned. And while it's not perfect, and there is a huge stack of papers on the floor next to my desk now... I feel like I was successful. Amazing how such a small thing can make such a big difference.
Another huge weight lifted...Our plants are growing for my national board video taping lessons! YAY! We've been able to start practicing some parts of what I'm going to want my kids to do on the video. Slowly introducing the various components. Like using the computer to enter their measurements, their journals to draw and write in and rulers to measure with without ruining their plants. Kids!