Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Happy Birthday to Me :) Keep Moving Forward

Well tomorrow is my 26th birthday.

Tomorrow will mark the 1st day of the year in my life that I always imagined I'd have children by. Or at least that was the goal I had written on my exit exam from one of my High School classes.

I still have that paper. You know, the life plan you have when you're naive and young... The life plan before IF. Why did I put a year, a number, on this goal? Why 26? Maybe I thought that because that's when my mom had me, I don't know. But life isn't ever how you plan it.

I really doubt (unless there is a miracle out there for us which would be amazing btw) that there will be any children of our own in our lives this year. There will be plenty of first graders, primary kids, friends, niece, and nephews which we will love and spoil like we always do :) However, I must say, it is a tad bit on the sad side for me to know that my goal age for me having children will come and go, and not be reached. But I move forward. I love Disney's Meet the Robinsons for this message it shares about moving forward and not getting stuck in the past. It is so true. So tomorrow as I celebrate my birthday my wish will be that John and I can keep moving forward, and not get stuck in the past. Maybe I'll download the Rob Thomas song from the movie to play all day tomorrow too!

As a side note, my wonderful husband brought me a bouquet of Gerber Daisies home today (my favorite flower). I'll take pictures and share them for show and tell soon. They're GORGEOUS! :)

9 comments:

callmemama said...

Happy Birthday! I know exactly what you mean about making a plan for your life when you're young, and not having it go according to plan. Still, I hope your birthday is a happy one and that this next year brings you closer to motherhood!

SarahMarie said...

Happy Birthday Erika! I know exactly how you feel. I have a plan and when I turn 25 this year it will all coming hitting me in the face. But soon all of our plans will come true in some form. Like you said we will always have our students at school, but I know it is not the same. Happy Birthday and wear a big smile today.

thebigif said...

Happy Birthday, Erika! I understand where you're coming from on the age goal. Mine was 30...turned 31 this year. It sucks, but I do hope you manage to have a wonderful day, and I hope 26 will be a great year. You are so right- all we can do is move forward. Be sure to make your wish as you blow out those candles!

Lindsay said...

Happy Birthday! Hope you've had a great day.

Mrz. Hannah Myhre said...

Happy Birthday to YOU!!! I Hope it was a Great one:)

Molly said...

Happy birthday! My own timeline hasn't gone according to plan anyway, but does it ever? Sending you good thoughts...

- Molly
http://roots-andwings.blogspot.com/

*TTC*Chick* said...

Happy Birthday! Stay positive! I always imagined I'd be pregnant by now too. :( Don't give up!

Wes and Dani said...

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farmerswife06 said...

I just hit my year this week too. I was soo emotional over it too. I had always thought I would have at least 2 by the time I was 27. And I don't even have 1!! And I'm not pregnant either!!! PCOS sucks big time!!! I just wanted to say I thought I was the only one that took birthdays to heart like this. I had a major meltdown the night before. My more hubby God love him I put him through the ringer.

I also wanted to say I found you through ICLW and thanks for blogging and sharing with all of us!!!