Thursday, June 23, 2011


6 months
1 abnormal and excruciatingly painful HSG $150
23 chiropractor appointments FREE (remind me to tell you that story if I haven't already. MOST AMAZING PEOPLE EVER!)
5 rounds of Clo.mid=35 pills $100 (2 rounds 50 mg 3 rounds 100mg)
2 rounds of Prov.era (back to back)=20 pills $40
30 ovulation predictor sticks peed on only 1 smiley face (and yeah... totally skipped testing one cycle and half of another...) $60
4 negative pregnancy tests (all in a span of 2 weeks) $30
2 doctors appointments
Countless missed phone calls and hours playing phone tag
and more emotional roller coasters

Tomorrow is the day... I knew it was coming to this, we probably would've been smarter to have taken the referral 6 months ago... but tomorrow is the day we get a referral to a specialist. We haven't decided where we'll go yet. Maybe north to Salt Lake City (5 hours away) where I had my first lap 9 years ago, or possibly Vegas (2 hours) it is after all the closest...or we've talked about staying in state and going to Phoenix (7 hours) and using doctors we've met at RESOLVE functions, or even going to LA (6 hours) where at the Southwest Family Building Conference hosted by resolve we totally made light of our situation. I'm so torn. I have no idea what decision we'll actually make. I'm beginning to think that its just not worth it. It might not work anyway, we don't have the money to move forward wherever we go. But we have to... we have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to know once and for all what it will take, if its even humanly possible for my body to do what it's supposed to. If its capable, and what all is actually wrong with me.

I'm thankful tomorrow is finally here... now hopefully I won't leave you all hanging for another 6 months! Thanks for sticking around. Thanks for still being supportive even though I'm a lame blogger.


Life Happens said...

I was just literallyreading through some old comments and came across one from you and wondered how you were doing!! Seriously!

I'm glad that you are getting a referral to see a specialist. I know it's not easy going through all of this, but do what you feel is right for your family. Lots of tough decisions ahead, but know that you are not alone. Heavenly Father will guide you through it all. Take it from someone who's been there.

Wish you the best of luck! Hope to hear back from you soon.

Lisa said...

I'm sorry, I know its so hard. I would go consult with some of the RE's that are closest to you, which sounds like vegas. Even though you may not be able to cycle yet, when you do you will be going a lot- so you want someone that is (relativly) close. You have a lot of choices ahead, but we are all here for you!! Best of luck!!

Nivette said...

I wish I could fix everything for you, seriously :( I hope you guys can figure stuff out. Keep your chin up, I know you will make it through whatever happens.

Lee Family said...

Hopefully you will finally get the answers that you need. Love ya!

Mom said...

All my love and prayers are with you