Trying Again

Well, after almost 6 years of trying to maintain the Endo, being diagnosed with PCOS and trying to maintain that, being scared, being scarred, and finally coming to terms with and accepting the fact that children may never be a part of our family; we're trying again!!

To be honest, we're not really sure how we ended up here, but we feel really good about it, whatever the outcome may be. John's decided he's doing this because he wants definitive answers. I of course am WAY more hopeful and optimistic that the end result of all of this may be what we've been waiting for.

Here's a little back story as to what's been going on and lead us to now.

We discussed trying again at length before my yearly appointment, but never came to a decision, it just didn't feel right, either way. While at that appointment, at the end of October, I asked a couple of questions about what trying again would look like (since there's no RE's for at least 100 miles) but nothing concrete. She put me on some meds to help me loose weight and said that have to be monitored every month. Also on the way out she mentioned that because of some things I said, I should probably have my thyroid checked.

So for the last month, I've been taking my new meds and having all of the lovely side effects mentioned in the information packet. Including having rare, but extreme, dizzy spells. So as we neared the follow up appointment I asked John to come with me since I knew the thyroid test would = blood drawn. (Drawing blood ALWAYS makes me super dizzy and I wanted to make it back home in 1 piece) So, last Monday, I shoved all my students on their buses and told John to "Fly like the wind, Bullseye!" as we raced to make it to the appointment on time. (for the record we were 5 minutes late, and I did call and tell them, they laughed at me!)

When we got in the room and started discussing my current meds, side effects, how it's working, and all of a sudden we were talking about how aggressive (aka some sort of progesterone supplement and clomid) we wanted to start out. I don't even remember who asked first or how it came up. We had not planned any of it, and somehow we walked out of the office with 4 different prescriptions and 3 different orders for tests.


So I have 3 BC pills left and then, off we go!

Break

I'm not really sure where I'm wanting this particular blog to go, or what I want to do with it. I feel like it's not really part of who I am at the moment. So, I won't be posting here for a while, until I figure it out, or feel like infertility is a paramount characteristic again. Until then, feel free to follow me over here. I'm doing the 30 day blog challenge that so many of you are participating in!

Long time no see!

Ok, well that's not exactly true. I've been "seeing" all of you and keeping up with what each of you are up to, but I have been MIA on both my blogs. I don't know how much longer my break will be. But know that I'm thinking of and praying for each of you where ever you're at on your journey.

Giveaway Winner

Hey everybody! Thanks for entering my first giveaway. I hope I did everything right! I'm so thankful to CSN Stores for hosting it!

The winner of the $40 gift certificate is

Sonja

Congratulations! I can't wait to see what you get!

I used Random.org to generate the winner. I tried for an hour yesterday to download some screencapture software to take a picture of the results but it just wasn't working. Then when I was at Eclipse, John had issues with the computer and had to restart it, so you'll just have to trust me! Anyone have any screencapture software that works, is easy, free, and reliable?

Thanks to everyone who entered! This was REALLY fun!

It's a GIVEAWAY!

Giveaway now closed :)

So, do you remember when we got to review a set of caphalon pans from CSN Stores? Well, Ashley has contacted me again and has offered to giveaway a $40 gift certificate to one of my readers! Maybe you can use it towards the purchase of one of these fabulous platform beds or find something else among their family of 200+ online stores.

I am so thrilled about CSN Stores hosting my very first giveaway! Working with them previously was quick, efficient, and easy. They also deliver fantastic, high quality products at a bargain! You can be sure that the meals John makes out of our caphalon pans are delicious and since he read and follows the "clean up instructions" these pans will last FOREVER!

So here's how you enter... each one of these that you do will get you an entry, just be sure to leave a separate comment for each of them, with your e-mail!

• Look around CSN Stores and tell me what you would use your $40 gift card towards
• Follow me and CSN Stores on twitter
• Tweet about the giveaway, you can do this once per day.
• Be a blog follower, subscribe to my blog, or add me to your blogroll.

Giveaway contest starts now and will end July 1st at midnight so I can announce the winner on my birthday, July 2nd :) That will be a great birthday present!

(p.s. I sure hope this is as easy as it seems! If you've done giveaways before and have pointers e-mail them to me would ya? lol)

Update...

If you read my rant a few days ago, I'm working on changing my attitude... It is the biggest setback to me wanting to teach here at all next year. Seeing as I've heard nothing from anywhere else and my contract has to be signed by Friday... I need to get over it.

It's going to be really hard. I don't want to believe that she can do it. I don't want to help her. I want her to fail miserably.

Unfortunately I also know myself too well. I've worked too hard on my attitude and my "don't be hypocritical you hate when others are that way" to throw it out the window.

SO starting today... I'm on her side (begrudgingly for now).

I will put on my happy face and help where I can, without doing her job for her.

Here's to moving forward...

ugh this is hard to write right now. I really don't want to do this but I know I'll be better for it if I do!

ICLW June Edition

I just entered my information on Mel's form. I can't believe I hadn't added myself already. So if I don't make it on the list this month oh well. I'll still read and comment and pretend! lol

Here's a little about me/plans for the future.

• I'm almost 27 (next week! ahhh!)
• I have PCOS and Endo.
• I have horrible allergies all summer long thanks to the continuous blooming season and dry air here in the desert! (I'm contemplating buying stock in Kleenex!)
• I've been married for 7 years! (yes i was just a baby myself when we got married...but I wouldn't have it any other way now!)
• I'm currently in the middle of a job search, this is the last week before I have to sign my contract where I've worked for the last 6 years.
• I've been complaining a lot about my place of employment. SORRY! I promise I'll try not to anymore!
• If we move to someplace with IF insurance coverage, we'll proceed with treatments (aka start all over, it has been 5 years)
• If we stay here we will head to the OBGYN here locally and see how far into this process they take us. If that doesn't work, we'll do the 'foster to adopt' route (most likely of an older 4-7 yr old child is what we're thinking).

Life is kinda on hold, at least for this week. We have all kinds of plans we're supposed to have made for travel in July, but everything is still hanging by the "maybe we'll get a job somewhere else" thread. So next weekend we'll be cementing the rest of our summer plans. It will be nice to start making some concrete decisions!

So welcome, stick around awhile, later on this week I'll be hosting my first giveaway ;)